wow. 

Emptiness leaves us wanton till we fill it with whatever secondary appetite might seem to stop our hungers of soul.

The difference between what God wants for us and what we ultimately become rests in how we break the thrall of those appetites that chain us to selfish lifestyles and selfish life goals.

When we accept God's vision for our lives, we pray. But it may be that we expect too much instant revelation from our prayers. We want to pray for a fiery chariot in the morning and be riding to church in it by nightfall. We rarely pray for fire and open our eyes to find a box of matches in our hand.

Thunderclasps and lightning flashes are very unlikely. It is well to start small and quietly. No need to tell one's friends and acquintances. No need to plan heroic fasts or all-night vigils...prayer is neither to impress other people nor to impress God. Its not to be taken on with a mentality of success. The goal, in prayer, is to give oneself away.